I often think about the determinants of trust. What attributes to us trusting something or someone? What do we base on in order to trust?
For some of us, it takes very little to give our complete trust. Could it be that we are more naive and ignorant? Did we base our trust for people and things on our own sets of moral values? What did we measure against? Or, is trust a by-product of integrity?
Now, what then is integrity? Everything beckons a long (or short, depending on your level of critical thinking skill) list of questions.
Personally, I depend on other people to help me determine if I should be wary of things and people. I trust by default, but when do I become more wary? Evidences and reasons of distrust. Perhaps it’s not the wisest strategy; in today’s context, people distrust by default unless you have proved yourself to be trustworthy.
That is one of the reasons why my logic fails to work as effectively as I would have preferred. I give out a basket of goodies to you on our first meeting, and if you proved to be unworthy of my trust, I don’t take the goodies back, I just stop giving you more. I consider my initial investment as a lost. What most people do though, is to give you an empty basket and you will have to earn the goodies by proving your trustworthiness.
The latter seems befitting to the current societal climate. Positive reinforcement – people need a reason to motivate themselves. Another seemingly effective method is punishment – imposing threat to take away things that are pleasant.
Growing up, I always fight for the underdogs. In the most stringent and critical analysis, altruism may not really exist. I don’t benefit from getting involved in fighting for a cause I believe in; most of the time, the involvement put myself in a precarious situation with the authority. Is it an act of altruism? I reckon not. It is partly a projection of my personal experiences and no one protected nor fought for me (or alongside). Perhaps it’s a psychological self-salvation.
Or, it could just be for the greater good.
How much does it take for you to cross a shaky bridge to an unknown destination when you have every option to remain at where you are – comfortably?
I may always have opposing opinions towards the authority, any authority. It’s only reasonable because no system is perfect; anyone assuming that is just a pompous imbecile. I am a perfectionist, but even I, am critical towards my work and continuously seek improvements in the work that has reached ‘highly satisfactory’ state. I keep an open mind which is similar to an open-top triangle. There is no summit, there is always something more.
All things combined – my personality traits, intelligence level, opportunities and whatnot – is resulting in best and worst concoction for a more arduous journey.
I’ve only been in Perth for 6 months, but I have already filed in a formal complaint with the Secretary of the University for a cause that will no longer benefit me because I had taken the long and painful route to patch the holes in the broken system, yet I decided to flag up my existence which may (or may not – depending on your trust index about prejudice) make my learning journey more challenging. So, why did I do it? Why did I spend much of my precious time making ‘enemies’? It just has to be done. I know for certain that I was not the first student who falls through the giant cracks, but my predecessors did not do anything about it, hence history repeating itself. History provides insight into pattern formation, it’s up to me to do something and hopefully tighten the procedures to benefit future students. People keep telling me to not bite the hands that feed me, I acknowledge that, and I think people should start telling the service/education providers not to bite the hands (me, the student who is paying fees!) that feed them!
Our fear for trouble is sometimes irrational. We fail to recognise our roles and the power we have in our hands. Sure, I have more triumph cards on hand. I don’t need this education – I already have whatever I needed to live comfortably – I want this education. My key reason to want this education is to learn something useful so that I can apply the knowledge effectively to help improve lives. In view of that, I have lesser to lose as compared to my predecessors, because they need the education (so they thought). Therefore, it makes me a perfect candidate to try to right the wrong.
I am just entering into the new semester; I am also entering into the procedures in filing for discrimination against people with disability. Similarly, it might do more harm than good to me, but time is of the essence. I am not angry, and I am not taking a firm stand that it’s definitely a discrimination. My aim is to open this official dialogue to address an issue that can be a cause of discrimination, or a negligent and misunderstanding. I want to put this forward to keep educators and providers on their toes about this policy.
Would you have done the same? Or would you not risk offending an educator involved in your current studies? I won’t judge you on whatever decision you make, it is not wrong to make the best self-benefiting decision; it may be more morally right to do otherwise, but I will never think lesser of anyone who chooses to walk away – keep in mind that we don’t know how much is too much for a person to lose, so we are in no position to judge their decisions.
Now, can I trust that the system will protect me from further discrimination? Only time will tell.